MOMMY PLEASE DON’T GO by TAWNI BRANZ Copyright 2007...... Mommy, please don’t go... Can’t you just stay home with me?... Daddy goes to work... I need you here – I’m only three... I know you think it’s what you need... You say it’s your career But, mommy, you’re more valuable At home with me – right here... Mommy, please don’t go... There are no rewards out there That can make you feel As great as when our time we share... I know that times have changed – and that The world says you need more But, mommy, won’t you stay with me... Don’t see me as a chore... Mommy, please don’t go... You could teach me how to be Someone who will know That life is not about just me... You say you want to be someone You want to find your worth But, mommy there will never be – Not on this planet earth – A person or a job that can Reflect how great you are Like I can as I grow – you’ll see To ME you’ll be a star... Mommy, don’t you know That family matters most in life When all is said and done It’s more than fine to be a wife – Who stays at home and loves her child With everything she’s got... You mean the “whole wide world” to ME – And, mommy – that’s A LOT!... Mommy, please don’t go There are no rewards out there That can make you feel As great as when our time we share... I know you think it’s what you need... You say it’s your career But, mommy, you’re more valuable At home - with me - right here... Mommy, please don’t go Mommy, please don’t go!!! I wrote that one day after my little girl clung to my neck refusing to let go, sobbing, Mommy PLEASE dont go, as I dropped her off at daycare where strangers work to make a living so that I could go to work to make a living... I thot about it ALL day and realized how messed up it is... (I NEED TO FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN SET THESE WORDS TO MUSIC AND RECORD IT AS A SONG. THE SAME FOR MY LYRICS "MY LITTLE BOY, MY SOLDIER - PLEASE COME HOME

THE WORST WORDS... by Tawni Branz

I wrote this a few weeks after my mom passed away... THE WORST WORDS By Tawny Branz Copyright 2007 WHO WOULD’VE THOUGHT THE WORST WORDS THAT I EVER COULD HAVE HEARD WERE “SHE LOVED YOU, DEAR, SO MUCH” – I THOUGHT – OH GOD, I’VE GOT TO SEE HER AND, WHAT DO YOU MEAN – SHE LOVED ME? SHE STILL LOVES ME? RIGHT? SHE LOVES ME! MY DAD – HE WRAPPED HIS ARMS AROUND ME TIGHT CAUSE I WAS FALLING STANDING IN THAT HOSPITAL – THE SOUNDS OF NURSES CALLING. OH, GOD – I CRIED! OH PLEASE, NO, GOD! I HAVE TO SEE MY MOM JUST YESTERDAY WE WENT TO LUNCH – SHE’S FINE – SHE CAN’T BE GONE? I DIDN’T GET TO SAY GOOD-BYE – THIS JUST CANT BE - I’M DREAMING OH, WHY THEN AM I STANDING HERE – OH WHY THEN AM I SCREAMING? WHO WOULD’VE THOUGHT THE WORST WORDS THAT I EVER COULD HAVE HEARD WERE “SHE LOVED YOU, DEAR, SO MUCH” I THOUGHT – OH GOD, I’VE GOT TO SEE HER! SHE’D ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO STOP BY LAST NIGHT TO VISIT IT’S NOT MY FAULT I DIDN’T GO – IT’S NOT MY FAULT! OR IS IT?! I SHOULD HAVE GONE TO SEE HER -OH, IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN THIS I WOULD HAVE SET ASIDE MY STUPID PLANS - I FEEL SO HOPELESS! THEY LET ME IN TO SEE HER - LAYING THERE – BUT SHE’S NOT BREATHING I HARDLY CAN CONTAIN THIS PAIN – THIS ANGER – SO MUCH GRIEVING AT LEAST I KNOW SHE LOVED ME – NOT JUST CAUSE MY FATHER TOLD ME - BUT WHAT I WOULDN’T GIVE FOR ONE MORE CHANCE TO HAVE HER HOLD ME. WHO WOULD’VE THOUGHT THE WORST WORDS THAT I EVER COULD HAVE HEARD WERE “SHE LOVED YOU, DEAR, SO MUCH” IF ONLY SOMEHOW I COULD HEAR HER SAY THOSE WORDS – I LOVE YOU - BUT I’LL NEVER HAVE THAT HONOR I STILL CAN HEAR MY FATHER’S WORDS – THOSE PAST TENSE WORDS SAID FOR HER. My mom, my BEST friend... I loved her more than just about anyone... But after she passed ohhh how I wished that I had done a better job of showing her just how much! DONT WAIT SO LONG TO LET YOUR LOVED ONES KNOW JUST HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM! YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN THAT DAY WILL COME WHEN THEY ARE NO LONGER HERE TO SHOW OR TELL THEM.

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TRUE Story... Amazing Faithfulness of God!...

TRUE Story... Amazing Faithfulness of God!

by Tawni Branz on Friday, October 28, 2011 at 6:43pm...

A young lady who had, all her life, been taught by Godly parents that it is more of a blessing to GIVE than to receive, found a job with a company where several female co-workers verbally and emotionally abused and harrassed her on a continual basis. They stole from her... put inappropriate vulgar things in her work space. They found out her personal information and had her phone number put on the wall of the men's bathroom. They ordered merchandise in her name and had it sent to her house along with the bill...

They did all these things and more because they knew that she was a christian and that she was nice (often mistaken for weakness) and because she was tall and thin and attractive and dressed professionally when they did not. This young lady did absolutely NOTHING to antagonize or instigate all the nastiness that these girls dished out. In fact she viewed these girls as precious in the eyes of God, and she had prayed often for them...
Often she went home in tears, wondering WHY all this harrassment and abuse had to be...?? Sometimes she was tempted to get angry with God, but was quickly reminded by the Holy Spirit that EVEN Jesus was persecuted and tormented (FAR WORSE than she ever was)...
Well, This young lady, as she had always been taught to do, gave over and above her tithe (tithe is the FIRST ten percent) in offerings... Whenever she was able, upon receiving money such as in tax returns, unexpected gifts, she would pray and ask the Lord to show her who He would like her to bless with the 'offering' ...
Well, this particular time after receiving some money, while at work she was talking to the Lord on her way to the restroom, asking Him to show her to whom He wanted her to give some money... "Who do you really want to bless, Lord" she asked Him. "Who could really use it"...
Well, who should walk in the restroom but the 2 girls who had shown her nothing but hatred and nastiness for months. God told her at that moment, "I want you to give it to the one girl who hates you the most." Standing in the stall the young lady couldn't believe what she heard the Lord telling her to do.

"Not HER, God!" she pleaded, hoping for some confirmation that she had just misunderstood what the Holy Spirit had told her...
Then the confirmation came, but NOT the confirmation for which she was hoping. The girl who hated her said to the other girl who tormented her, "I wish I could get my son those Nike shoes he wants... He's been begging for them for so long and it's his birthday in a few days and there's just no way I can afford them..."
"Ok, God, I'll do it, cuz I know you love her. I know that there's probably something I'm gonna learn from this..." She agreed... She walked out and handed the money to the girl and said that She knew that the girl didn't like her and that she wasn't trying to get her to be her friend, but that God wanted her to be able to get those shoes for her son because He loves her... And then that young lady walked out of the restroom. She didnt feel anger or resentment or disappointment... She felt love, she felt the presence of God, she felt strong... She felt GOOD...
The abuse, the harrasment was over... Those two girls never bothered her again. They couldnt fight the love of God... But WAIT... The BEST PART is that God THEN showed Himself to be FAITHFUL to His Word... The Bible says to GIVE and it will be GIVEN UNTO YOU GOOD MEASURE, pressed down, shaken together an running over... shall MEN give unto you! ...BEST PART... The next wkend one of the guys from her church who was helping her family clean out her grandprents house since they had passed away, tossed a package of queen-sized panty hose at her jokingly telling her that she might be able to use them (she wore a size zero so she OBVIOUSLY wouldnt be wearing them anytime soon)
To make a long story a little shorter... She decided to KEEP the package of pantyhose (that would have otherwise been tossed in the burn barrel with all the other stuff they were tossing out) so she put them in her bedroom drawer for when she was ... Big... pregnant someday maybe... but the package kept getting stuck when she opened/closed the drawer... So she decided to take them outta the package and keep the panthose and throw the package away...
WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH GOD'S FAITHFULNESS?? Glad you asked... When she reached in to pull out the pantyhose she found 10 $100 bills instead ($1000 for those who might be too good at math lol) SOOOOO... She gave, out of obedience to God, to a girl who hated her,  less than $100, and God in His infinite love and mercy and faithfulness turned the heart of that girl.  The boy got the shoes, and the nice young lady Got to see God at work and got $1000 ...
I thank God for my parents who taught me that it is far better to GIVE than to receive... God wants to bless His children, ESPECIALLY when they are obedient and show that they TRUST Him!
I love you Daddy, God with my WHOLE heart and every fiber of my being! You have NEVER let me down or disappointed me or got offended by my weakness' and imperfection, You dont treat me with sellf righteous piousness, You dont GIVE the SILENT TREATMENT to make a point... You are AWESOME!!! you are utterly and totaly AWESOME!

MY Family... It's what's DEARest to my heart... If MIXPOD is playing you can pause it before watching 'movie'

YOU are Special!...

No matter who you are or from where you have come... YOU are SPECIAL!!! And YOU are PRECIOUS to God... Don't let this day pass being fooled by a lie from the pit of Hell that YOU are insignificant... God formed you in your mother's womb... YOU are VALUABLE and PRECIOUS in His sight!!! God cares about the BIG things in your life and He cares about the small things... He knows the number of hairs on your head, for He created YOU!   ...YOU were not a mistake, YOU are not a failure... God sent His son to pay a price (an expensive painful price) for YOU... So that YOU could know His love and His mercy and His kindness so that Not only YOU would be blessed but so that other people whose lives you touch would be blessed as well...

I say a prayer for you this day, YOU who are reading these very words, that the eyes of your understanding would be enlightened and that you would come into the knowlege of the love and faithfulness of God that you could live a victorious, glorious, prosperous, effective life... That you would KNOW, sense, feel, see the Love of God toward YOU!

You are never alone... God is touched by your cries to Him... He longs to show Himself strong in your life... Let Him, Invite Him, Trust Him

Just a few Pics I took of my little princess... She's 8 going on 18... (You know how THAT goes...)

Who's behind those 'foster Grants'?... Mackenzi at age 7...

Tryin out her pouty pose... Age 6

My little drama queen... age 8

Sittin on her swing... Age 8

Mackenzi... age 8

Mackenzi... Age 7

Mackenzi... age 6

Mackenzi... age 6

Mackenzi ... age 8

Mackenzi... Age 6

Mackenzi... Age 5

Mackenzi at 5...



Mackenzi... age 4

Mackenzi checkin herself out at Dr. visit... TOO CUTE!  (The look she gives at the end...)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PPlkOyaqaQ ... I DREAMED A DREAM... Susan Boyle...
WILL ALWAYS BE ONE OF MY MOST FAVORITE PROFOUND U-TUBE SENSATIONS!!!!!... HOW DARE WE JUDGE WHEN WE HAVE NO IDEA THE GREATNESS THAT LIES WITHIN EACH PERSON... SO GO AHEAD AND... DREAM!

JUST A FEW FAMILY PHOTOS